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A moment of extreme clarity?

Most of you know that I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching lately.

And I just re-found an opportunity (I say re-found because I kind of found this department last year after I was done applying for grad school) that seems perfect for me.   It’s a masters international (aka peace corps) in Recreation Resource Management which would guarentee a full tuition waiver.

experience abroad + a MS coursework in a beautiful state + a potential career in something like ecotourism

This is what I’ve been looking for.  

Oh and admissions are rolling and there are no deadlines.  

Emails will be sent this week. 

Posted 3 hours ago.
I wasn’t going to post this.

Because I’ve been losing followers like crazy lately. But today I did the opposite of go to the gym. I had all of my gym stuff … but then I got sad after paying another doctor bill … so I bought some rosé wine and ate a marzipan chocolate.  These unhealthy behaviors are making me really not like myself.  

Tomorrow will be better.  It will.  

On the bright side, I think I fixed my computer and I’m seeing Kate Nash in concert tomorrow. 

Posted 4 hours ago.
+ Burrito bowl: used to be one of my staples, but I haven’t made it in a long time.  Bringing it back! Yummm!

Today was rough. I had a super long waiting time at the doctors office and currently have a sore arm from a tetanus booster.  And last but not least …there has been lots of phone crying to insurance companies, doctors offices, and collections (for old hospital bills). It’s overwhelming and scary but at least I’m dealing with it now. They don’t teach this stuff in school … and I certainly didn’t learn anything from my parents (except maybe some of my irresponsible behaviors). Debt isn’t fair.  I’ve never owned a single credit card, yet I’m drowning in it.  So here’s making a plan. I’m just going to try my best to keep swimming instead of just treading water and ignoring the circling sharks.  Yes that is a lame analogy, but it’s perfect.

Burrito bowl: used to be one of my staples, but I haven’t made it in a long time. Bringing it back! Yummm!

Today was rough. I had a super long waiting time at the doctors office and currently have a sore arm from a tetanus booster. And last but not least …there has been lots of phone crying to insurance companies, doctors offices, and collections (for old hospital bills). It’s overwhelming and scary but at least I’m dealing with it now. They don’t teach this stuff in school … and I certainly didn’t learn anything from my parents (except maybe some of my irresponsible behaviors). Debt isn’t fair. I’ve never owned a single credit card, yet I’m drowning in it. So here’s making a plan. I’m just going to try my best to keep swimming instead of just treading water and ignoring the circling sharks. Yes that is a lame analogy, but it’s perfect.

Today

I am going to be responsible. I will try to figure shit out. It involves lots of talking on the phone. I hate talking on the phone.

Good luck to me.

Edit: First I must wait in the soul crushing waiting room at the doctors office … where appointments are consistently an hour late. Ugh
Posted 1 day ago.

I bake when I’m stressed. 

Introducing: strawberry cashew “cheesecake bites” 

Posted 2 days ago.
yeah.

My week away was awesome. I loved the change of scenery 5 hours north. Days of hard physical labor (environmental restoration work) followed by nights of copious beer drinking in good company.  

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"The person in life that you will always be with the most, is yourself. Because even when you are with others, you are still with yourself, too! When you wake up in the morning, you are with yourself, laying in bed at night you are with yourself, walking down the street in the sunlight you are with yourself.What kind of person do you want to walk down the street with? What kind of person do you want to wake up in the morning with? What kind of person do you want to see at the end of the day before you fall asleep? Because that person is yourself, and it’s your responsibility to be that person you want to be with. I know I want to spend my life with a person who knows how to let things go, who’s not full of hate, who’s able to smile and be carefree. So that’s who I have to be."

— C. Joybell C.  (via bluishtigers)

Posted 4 days ago.
+ Last post before I go offline for the week.

Chili verde burrito with ruthless rye! Omnom

Last post before I go offline for the week.

Chili verde burrito with ruthless rye! Omnom

Posted 1 week ago.